"links" watercolor 2009

Life is connected. We are all connected. Series of events makes up life. These events may seem unrelated and individual, but mostly they are connected. Sometimes we don’t understand the connection or reason for them at the time that they happen, sometimes never, other times it is revealed to us. It is said that when one door closes another opens, and I hope that this is true. For one door that I have spent nearly a year and half on trying to achieve today suddenly closed. Surprisingly is more the rejection then lack of opportunity that I find disheartening. The knowledge that I am not wanted, my talent not recognized, or that it is inferior to someone else’s. Or maybe it all came down to the money. In many ways I feel relieved that I don’t have to make that commitment. Now I will have time for other things to come in the door, and I have hopes of these other things coming in soon.

I remember hearing from someone, maybe it was my father or mother, that all people come into our lives for a reason. I have been holding this idea in my mind, turning it, examining it. Thinking about all the new (and old) people in my life and wondering. Taking Yoga has brought me slowly into more connection with myself, but also has made me think about our connections and links to others. The expression “it’s a small world” interchanged thousands of times between strangers who have found some connection, is in many ways right. Except it is, in this respect, much smaller then any of us may think. We have much more in common, many more connections and links then we can imagine and many times more then we find out. These links between us humans lie as invisible chains linking one human to the next and all through each other, yet we are all separate, individual and unique too. Events are much the same way, connected yet different and separate. Sometimes taking the time to think about these connections can bring some amount of clarity to this often chaotic and confusing world.