Week 4 in my class.
153 days left to go.
It is passing.
Knowledge accumulating.
Potential stagnating.
Is hope actually a crutch to taking no action, as Jenson believes?
Or is that for me hope combats fear so it allows for action?
Or is none of this true?
What about patience?
Something I hate, but sometimes you have to wait to take action because the action will be made better with waiting.
Like, planting seeds if you plant seeds in most climates during November your seeds will die without the opportunity to grow.
Yet if you wait until the warming moisture of Spring they will flourish.
Sometimes taking no action is the hardest action of all.
Or is that also a mistake?
Are their mistakes, or rather are their just learning experiences?
When you feel desperation do you run, or do you turn and fight?
What if you are too tired to fight?
What if you have fought all your life and now you want to just breathe, to relax?
What were you taught?
Do you fight or flight?
What if action looses focus, is that focus hope, and useless or is it what keeps you going with action?
Are there many kinds of hopes?
Hopes without possibility of action and hope that allows action?
And then sometimes it just comes to getting through another day.
Not doing anything great, just making the basic motions of being minimally human.
And sometimes that is all we can muster up.
And sometimes we can do much more.