I really want to take this retreat, what an amazing concept. This retreat is great way to break down physical barriers and to connect artists from all over. I think this it is revolutionary. I wrote a grant on Thursday to fund this class and then support a class of my own that I have been planning and piecing together for some time to teach locally on creativity along with an art show! It would be exciting to get funded for this project. It is always scary putting yourself forward to be scrutinized with the possibility of being rejected.  The possibility of failure is so great, that just the very idea of it is often so much it freezes us in our tracks, or at least it does me. Yet if we don’t try we never have the chance to succeed. If we don’t put ourselves forward into the world and say, “here I am” the world doesn’t know you are there. It is very rare when the world seeks you out. Of course that is the most flattering and wonderful thing, but like I said very rare.

Sometimes I worry about how I splash myself onto the canvas of the world with thick paint in rushed and broad-brush strokes for all to see. I wish I had more careful thought out strokes that I would refine and refine, and it has been something I have worked on. Yet it is my brash and spontaneous spirit of quick strokes that has allowed me to take risks, sometimes-huge risks and sometimes those risks have provided me wondrous results while other times…they haven’t. Yet instead of letting those have nots stop me from continuing I try to remember that if you don’t try, you won’t have the opportunity to succeed. Each have not, I like to think I take something away with me a little gem, a new sparkle of hope and learning. So go, splash color on the page, if you spill down worry sometimes-profound beauty and learning can be achieved through accidents.