
Noise, before moving hear noise didn’t really mean that much to me. Growing up I lived on almost 6 acres in the country and the traffic noise was a distant muffled hum, quiet at night and often throughout the day even. Living in Oregon we were miles from any really busy road. We had the usual neighborhood noises, leaf blowers at 7am on Sunday mornings, dogs barking sometimes insistently as they were neglected, being left outside for hours and hours on end, while their owners were at work, or sat inside watching television. In Phoenix we lived with my in-laws in a retirement community, the silence at night was almost impenetrable. Well I guess you had the crickets in the summer, and sometimes the howl of the coyotes, but they were natural sounds and they were no nonstop. During the day it was pretty quiet too, the occasional motorcycle, or siren but all and all noise didn’t permeate you. The heat did, but that is another post all together.
In the past I have always considered myself great at tuning out noise. I grew up with two older sisters who had later bed times then me, I slept in hospitals, I was good in stores that had crashing music, I just tuned out, it didn’t even cross my consciousness.
Now it is different. We didn’t believe for a moment that this country road would be some main artery when we moved in to our apartment almost 6months ago. That all day, all night, cars would rush by, and that their noise would enter every corner of tour home. The struggle between fresh air and more noise is constant. Even with the windows closed tight though we don’t win. The noise finds its way in. So loud that when DH talks to me from somewhere else in our little 800sq feet home I can’t hear his words unless he shares the same room as me.
Briefly between cars there are moments of silence, delicious emptiness where my ears can rest from the constant whir that fills them. But mostly there is noise. Noise day and night. I want silence. Never before living here did I realize the power of quiet, the bodies need for time without noise, or my own very deep need for time in silence. How the constant noise wears on my nerves leaving me just a bit more on edge, just a bit shorter with my temper and a little more worn down the around the edges then normal.
So. I am looking for ways to create inner silence, inner quiet to help counteract the outside noise. Any other suggestions?